The Pros and Cons of it all

Staying Overweight

Pros

1. Don’t have to do anything
2. Can hide behind weight
3. Comfortable
4. Don’t have to be accountable for my what I eat
5. Can watch lots of TV
6. Don’t have to sweat
7. Don’t have to explain why I can’t eat ‘X’
8. Don’t have to look to deeply into myself as to the reasons why I eat
9. I can stay lazy
10. I can eat anything I want

Cons

1. Lower life expectancy
2. Less energy
3. More self doubt
4. More self anger
5. More feelings of unworthiness
6. Can’t shop in ‘ladies’
7. Airplane seats are uncomfortable
8. Not a lot of energy to play with son
9. Sexual inadequacy feelings
10. Fertility (?)

Getting Fit, Healthy and Thin

Pros

1. Can shop at any store for clothing
2. Live longer
3. More energy
4. Physical body will match image in my mind
5. Better example for son
6. Sexual confidence
7. Self Respect
8. Be stronger
9. Wear less items with spandex
10. Fertility (?)
11. Feel comfortable getting my picture taken

Cons

1. Nothing to blame
2. Nothing to hide behind
3. Get rid of comfy clothing
4. What will I do with myself?
5. All those TV shows not watched
6. Exercise

So during the writing of this pros and cons list I realized I can be some of these right now, such as a better example for my son (granted he’s 2 but the thought is still there), I can have more self respect and be stronger. I know that I have been an all or nothing (which then translates into nothing) person. I was very motivated to just ditch this whole diet thing when I gained 2 pounds over the weekend. Now I was back to 234 after being down to 232. I was p-oed. Today I ate a chili cheese dog and some candy and figured I’ll just get back on track tomorrow. Then I read something, tomorrow never really comes. If I let the all or nothing, be absolutely perfect on my diet, etc get in the way of changing my life then I’ll be stuck at this weight forever and always be mad at myself for my short comings. So, the plan for the rest of the day is to have a healthy dinner and work out. I worked out yesterday (woohoo for me) and I actually lost a half a pound yesterday (I weighed before I worked out). I didn’t weigh myself today so who knows what the scale will read after my chili cheese fiasco will register on the scale.

Goal for tomorrow: weigh self, w/o, eat a better breakfast, and remember pros and cons.